Depressive thoughts, borne of a mind that is mired in its own contemplative misery, culminating in a spiralling trip into inertia. Sinking into unbelievable depths of introspection, but never reaching anything more conclusive than a death sentence. The verdict being nothing more than a projection of a depressive state of mind, one never reaches anywhere further than the cerebral walls that close in each time one revisits the past, the recent past or the redundancy of the future. Inner fears and unresolved torment recreate the figment of one's imagined unhappiness.
Restlessness, borne of a fundamental lack within one's consciousness of reality and bolstered by the inexorable need to become, to do, to escape. Becoming is a truism of the Self, steeped in the ever present and presence of mind. Goal-orientation, the driver of change, of doing and hence becoming, either motivates or stymies the restless one. Lacking an orientation toward a goal makes one restless, yet immobilizes one in one's entirety. Because one is immanently conscious of one's lack of goal-orientation, frustration evolves into restless ennui, and sometimes to resentful cynicism. Then one begins to search for reasons to justify the feelings, perhaps identifying the lack of goals or the disabled goal-orientation. If force drives action, which drives change, one might conclude that goal-oriented behaviour rests upon a force such as motivation (which is illogical if having a goal motivates one to act). And motivation being both externally and internally produced, it is only a matter of reasoning that the restless one might conclude that his lack of goal-orientation stems from a lack of motivation.
Motivation, a noun that is over-used and under-evaluated. Mostly understood and utilized as a concept to signify a feeling, an emotion or a force - internally or externally produced - which causes the human to engage in goal-oriented behaviour, in actions of sometimes mind-boggling proportions and other times of unspeakably inane pursuits such as getting straight As, going to Raffles Junior College and converting as many Muslims and Buddhists to Christianity as can be possibly envisioned in a given amount of time and stupidity. If goal-oriented behaviour is based on motivation - an internal force that could be stimulated by an external factor such as God, money and the person one desires to fuck, one should consider the basis of these factors that drive one's drive to act. Cognitively, one thinks, but emotionally, one feels. It is possible to think emotionally and feel rationally, but this is highly unlikely given the number of dimwits who do things for the reasons they say if you bother to ask. So motivation, the emotional driver of goal-oriented behaviour (which is cognitively rational but not necessarily logical) depends on how much one thinks the goal is worth orientating towards and acting for.
The only goal there is in being depressed is in the depressed person's complete and utter lack of goal-orientation, which is motivated by the inner-directed drive to be depressed.
